Keep Your Head Up

Finishing school and getting a job is not the end of your life.

You don’t stop there.

Think big. And I mean BIG.

What would you want to do in life?

Is it helping people? Feeding the poor? Helping people get married? Becoming a renown speaker? Writing books? Making music? Painting? Creating things? Drawing?

What do you genuinely LIKE doing?

Would you do this even if you didn’t get paid for it?

Find out whatever that is, and plan to do something big with it.

We’ve been given so many resources, so many chances to do things.

Everything is so easy now. People in our shoes 50 years ago could not have imagined some of the things we can do now.

You can find the entire database of hadith online now, you don’t even have to pick up a book.

Find out what your talents are.

After you figure them out, think of what you could do to use them in a beneficial way for the Ummah.

If not for the Ummah then at least for the rest of the human race.

Think BIG. Take a piece of paper and write it all out when you have time.

There’s honestly nothing you can’t do, just remember to think big.

And don’t forget, your greatest enemy is closer than you think.

Enchanted

You’ve bewitched me.

An unending river of feelings, blossoming inside.

Within seconds, I was entranced.

The intensity of emotion. Overwhelming.

What was a casual glance became the flutter of a heart.

The endless depth in your eyes.

Nothing seems ordinary anymore.

I don’t understand what happened.

It is at this point irrelevant.

Anywhere I may go, there is peace amidst pandemonium.

Intoxication prevails.

Lost in the feverish alternate reality.

Desperately trying to hang on by a thread.

All that seems difficult is no more.

Because of you.

Complete the dream or awaken me in cold sweat from slumber.

The bond cannot be left, even willingly.

It cannot be broken, my attempts are useless.

You must know, surely, it is all for you.

My affections and wishes have not changed.

I’m asking you to end my agony.

One word from you will silence me forever.

I only wait in anticipation, for it is inevitable.

You’ve bewitched me, body and soul.

Tawakkul

I’m so dumb, no wonder.

Allah gave me a sign, right there in front of me.

The irony of it is so funny.

I even saw it, saw it and ignored it, thought it didn’t really matter much. Today I went back through and saw it again, and just zoned out in disbelief.

How?

Man I’m stupid, it’s no wonder at the very last moment when I realized, everything started to happen once again.

Right when I realized I was wrong, and I corrected myself, everything fell back into place, subhan’Allah.

Put your trust in Allah, not how much du’a you make, or how much you contemplate, it’s in Allah’s Hands, He knows what you’re going to ask for before you even ask, He already KNOWS.

Don’t trust your du’as, trust Allah. Biggest mistake of my life.

It’s so amazing how we’re all interconnected.

I look at the world like the white room of the Matrix. Every single object and person being placed in specific areas for a specific time, specifically for me. Maybe everything’s a test, maybe some things aren’t.

But at the SAME TIME, this is happening for every single person in the world, right now.

The fact that you’re reading this just proves my point. My blog could be some kind of test for someone I don’t even know, who happens to randomly come here due to a search in Google.

Maybe they go away from this blog learning something new, or thinking in a different way.

Subhan’Allah, so crazy.

But alhamdulillah though, I found out in the best possible way that I was wrong. The very thing I made du’a for gave me the reminder. =)

So never, ever give up.

No matter how hard it may seem.

However down you may feel.

Even if things aren’t going the way you want them to.

Or if everything is just not turning out the way you wanted.

Allah is the best of planners. Always remember. Always keep your hope alive.

Always. He’s with you.

The Anima

Why exactly is my blog even called the Anima? What the heck does that even mean?

I’ll just post a bit of the history that went behind into making my blog.

This post will probably get really philosophical, so I’m just warning you in case you don’t want to get confused out of your mind.

The Anima is basically the shadow self of a person.

The Anima (male), Animus (female), or, more simply, the Soul, is the route to communication with the collective unconscious.

The anima/animus represents our true selves, as opposed to the masks we wear every day and is the source of our creativity. It’s basically where all that inspiration within us comes from, you could even say it’s where the iman rush comes from as well.

Back in the day, I always questioned the existence of a higher being.

Raised in an environment full of athiests and agnostics, my own beliefs weren’t as solid as they should have been.

I began to question everything, I couldn’t take things from face value.

I remember taking walks at night, just thinking for hours, wondering what human beings were really created for.

We come from out of nowhere. Can you remember anything from when you were 1 or 2 years old?

Where were you before you were born?

And now you’re suddenly here, in the middle of nowhere on some blue planet, in the middle of NOWHERE in the universe.

What the heck is going on? It’s mind blowing, really.

Those were the kinds of thoughts that would go through my mind on a daily basis.

I was always a fan of Jungian theory, the idea that human beings are able to evolve and become something greater than what we are now.

The idea that we are able to transcend onto certain levels through concentration and meditation. Ideas that we can surpass goals and limitations by the sheer willpower of our concious and subconcious mind.

The human potential. That’s what Jung was all about.

The Anima resembled the state of my soul, and the transformation into what I wanted it to become.

Little did I know that I would be in for a crazy, spiritual awakening journey.

The past year of my life has probably been the best.

Long gone are the days of societal boundaries and brick walls.

I began to realize Islam was the key to understanding my role.

It was also the key to understanding why I was created.

Many people have certain goals, they may want to be doctors, lawyers, rockstars, engineers.

I always had some feeling that I had an important part to play. I still don’t know what it is exactly, but there’s some calling I’m meant for, and it’s not any of those.

It’s something on a massive scale. Something that will move and change the world. Something that will strike that inspiration into the hearts and souls of people.

Something…

I have to let the pieces fall where they may.

I’m meant for a higher purpose. I believe I have to prove myself worthy of existence to Allah (SWT).

I can’t tell you why I feel this way or why I believe this, it’s just a feeling. Something I can’t describe with words.

It’s my purpose. The reason for which I am alive.

To serve Allah (SWT) by any means necessary. It is this purpose which has brought my mind to this realization.

I feel there’s something bigger. Something I’m meant to do. An idea, a thought, something there, waiting for me to reach in and grab it.

It won’t necessarily be something that is heard about for generations. It most likely will never make it to the public square.

But it will make itself into the hearts of people, and that is where the reality of it all lies.

Ashes to ashes, from dust to dust.

I thank Allah (SWT) for bringing me back. Now it’s time to step through the shadow.

“In this life, some people are born like keys that move the world and exist having no connection to the social hierarchy established by man.” – Berserk

The Ultimate Weapon

If you want to achieve anything in this life, please listen to me.

You need to make dua. I’m completely and utterly serious.

I don’t even understand how certain things are happening anymore.

I’ve tried and tried to replay it in my head, think of the reasoning, but I just can’t figure it out.

How is this stuff possible?

I’ll never be able to understand. Ever.

This is what you need to do.

I’ve already stated this before but I’m going to state it again because it’s this important.

You need to visualize your dua’s.

Anything you want in this life. Whether it’s that house or money or being able to go to the MAS Convention.

Anything.

You need to sincerely ask for it. While asking, see yourself being at that certain place or seeing this certain person.

It’s like you’re watching a movie of yourself.

What does this do? It helps you focus on your dua, because your senses and your feelings get attached to what you are saying.

It’s not just words anymore, you’re reliving the very dua you’re making. It jumps up your focus a lot more.

And Allah (SWT) knows if you really want something or if you’re just doing dua just to do it. He will answer or He won’t.

There isn’t a dua that goes to waste, you’ll either get what you want in this life or the next.

Sure it sounds kind of weird to do, but if it helps, use pictures you can find on Google or something. Anything that makes it easier for you to focus on what you want.

Also, be content with what you have. You have to understand that you need to THANK Allah (SWT) for everything He’s given you.

We ask for all these things, yet we never thank Allah (SWT) for the smallest things we have, and yet Allah (SWT) still grants us what we desire, subhan’Allah.

You need to be grateful, only then should you ask for what you want.

Try it. How can you know if you don’t even try. Have faith in this.

Think about it, if Allah willed, you would be dead right now. If Allah willed, our imaan would drop to zero right now. It is Allah who even holds our IMAAN in place so that we do not falter.

Nothing happens without the will of Allah. Nothing. Me typing this is only being allowed. If Allah willed, I wouldn’t even be able to type this out.

It doesn’t matter what statistics say, what calculations say, or what people believe your limits are.

Look at the faith of Hajjar (RA), she was left in the middle of nowhere and Ibrahim (Alayhisalaam) said he was doing it because it was a commandment from Allah.

You know what she said? She said, if this is true, then Allah will support us.

Do you think if you were placed in the desert in the middle of nowhere, your spouse who you love is leaving you with no reason, AND you have a crying, screaming baby who needs food and water desperately, do you think you would have had the same response as Hajjar (RA)?

For us males, I don’t know, those babies can really exhaust everything we have.

Subhan’Allah. How quickly we forget the blessings of Allah (SWT).

If you truly put your trust in Allah (SWT), insha’Allah you’ll see how much it helps. Keep asking, KEEP asking, NEVER stop asking, insha’Allah you will receive.

Allah LOVES the person who continuously asks him.

Allah also likes to delay the response because He loves His servants continuously depending on Him, AND He’s raising your level in Jannah.

Why would you not make du’a?

So on that note, PLEASE make du’a I’m able to volunteer at MAS this year =)